26. When You Are Feeling a Little Less Than..

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Hey everyone, it's Chelsea Van
Busk with the Heart AF podcast.

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Hope you guys are all doing well.

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I spent last week at a three day
conference called Soul Speaks from the

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stage, and it was an amazing experience
that really got me to connect with

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my intuition a little bit more as far
as when I'm speaking and how to speak

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from that place of inner knowing and
how to connect with an audience when

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I'm speaking to them face to face
from a stage and how to be able to

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really stripped down these kind of
expectations or the notion that I have

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to have, you know, my whole talk figured
out or planned out and scripted, right?

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It's about speaking really from the soul
and really tapping into that inner knowing

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and that that inner knowledge that's
within us and letting it come out, right,

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like settling into our space, into our
breath, and seeing what's coming through.

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what's coming through in that
specific moment that you feel you

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need to get out and say to the
audience that you're connecting with.

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And what's really amazing about that
experience is I believe that already.

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Like I believe that when you know
creators create, when you know artists

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are creating beautiful works of art,
when writers are writing and they're in

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flow, when you're in that flow state,
When a renowned speaker is speaking

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from their soul and speaking clearly
with a message of meaning, and when

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they're connecting with that creative
space, that is a space that's coming

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from our divine connections, right?

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It's our way that we're tapping
in with that divine source.

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And so, Such an amazing experience, right.

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And right up my alley, um,
with my spirituality and how I

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feel about our connection with
that divine, um, self, right?

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That higher self within us and
connecting with our creator.

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Um, so it was a, an amazing experience,
but also, um, terrifying at the same time.

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I was in a room full of women,
a lot of them who are older than

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me, who I felt were wiser than
me, more experienced than me.

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A lot of women who have had, um, a lot
of experience in the corporate world

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who have made some big changes and have
accomplished a lot more than what I

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consider to be successful in my own right.

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Right.

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Like these are successful
women in my eyes.

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And it was very intimidating
to walk into this room of them.

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A lot of them have known each other.

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They're in a, a coaching program together.

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So I did feel like an
outsider in a lot of ways.

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Walking in.

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Um, there were moments of self-doubt,
feeling like, do I belong here?

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Should I be here?

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Those kinds of things.

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But as the few days went on, as
as I got to connect and really get

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to know these women and hearing
their stories on the stage and

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hearing them speak from their souls.

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Even though a lot of us have different
sectors, we work in different expertise

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and different, um, you know, life
paths and different experiences.

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We very much had similar
stories in a lot of ways.

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We all had very similar feelings,
very similar emotional experiences.

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Right?

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Like even though the experiences
themselves might have been

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somewhat different, we've had
different life experiences.

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But at the same time, the feelings
that we experienced in those different

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life experiences were similar.

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We all struggled with, um,
appreciating ourselves.

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We all struggled with, um, feeling like
we don't belong or feeling, um, you

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know, insecure in a lot of ways, right?

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Like getting up on stage is a very
vulnerable place to be when you're

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standing up talking in front of people.

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For me, it's a lot easier to
get in front of a camera or.

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You know, speak on this podcast,
something like that, because

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it's just, it's just me, right?

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It's just me and the camera, and I don't
know who this message is gonna reach.

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I don't know how people are gonna respond.

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I don't know.

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But when you're on stage, you're in front
of the people who are receiving it, right?

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Like you're making eye contact with them.

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So that's a whole different ballgame,
and it is one of my dreams to be

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able to speak love on stage and to
be able to make an impact to people.

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From a stage.

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That's something that's
on my vision board.

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That's something that I
would much like to do.

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Um, you know, I can see myself
there, I can see it, but it's

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also terrifying at the same time.

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So this was such an incredible
experience, like pushing me outta

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my comfort zone in a lot of ways.

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Um, but I wanted to go back to this
feeling of that insecurity, this insecure

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place of not feeling like I didn't fit
in, right, because in my mind, pretty

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much haven't done much with my life.

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in my mind, comparing myself to these
other women who have come, are coming

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from, you know, creating businesses
and c being c female CEOs and, um,

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rocket scientists and things like that.

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Like these are the, this was
the room of women I was around.

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Right?

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Women who have successfully built these
businesses themselves and who have risen

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to the top, who have climbed ladders
and broken glass ceilings, right.

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Making a difference in, um, equality
in the corporate workplace, right?

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Like they're using their voices and
their talents to rise up as women in

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a lot of male dominated industries.

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And it's, it's amazing.

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It's magical and it's
like awe inspiring, right?

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I was awestruck by these women and
just, I wish I could do something that.

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Meaningful, impactful.

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Right.

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Again, it's, and we're
not like that, right?

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Like, it wasn't just me, like it
was the other women in the room too.

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Like they felt like they were comparing
themselves to the other women.

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Like, you know, maybe thinking that they
didn't make as big of an impact as that

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woman up there or that woman over there.

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But the truth of it is that every
single one of us, including myself,

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have all made an impact and a
difference in our own unique ways.

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And that's one of the things I,
I, I like to talk about is this

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notion that our accomplishments
don't equate our worth, right?

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The roles we play, the titles we
give ourselves, that is not what

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our worth is based upon and our
conditioning, our, the way that, you

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know, society kind of frames things.

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We get that notion that our worth
is based on those achievements.

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Our worth is based on how much money we
make or how many, um, uh, what do I want?

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Like, um, accumulations we have, right?

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Like it says that's success.

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But that's wrong.

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That's a wrong idea.

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And that's something that I'm really
trying to break with my message

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is that our worth is not based on
those things and that we actually

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don't have anything to prove because
we're innately worthy, right?

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Like just being in this space, just being
alive at this time is our worthiness.

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We are worthy of being heard,
we're worthy of being loved.

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We're worthy of respect.

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And.

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I really want people to see that within
themselves because it's really hard.

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It's really hard.

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And you know, I talked a bit on, um, the
episode about like the hustle culture,

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and we're always wanting to feel like
we have to push ourselves and, um,

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you know, get these accomplishments
and hit that next, you know, rung

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on the ladder to achieve success.

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But success is really about how we
feel about ourselves and realizing

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that we don't have anything to
prove and that we are worthy.

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We're worthy of being happy
and being joyful, and we don't

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have to suffer to get that.

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And I think that's, that's the problem
that a lot of us run into, is we feel like

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we have to suffer in order to receive,
or we have to prove or we have to work,

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um, in order to receive or feel worthy.

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And, and, and it's, it's bullshit.

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It's bullshit.

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We are all divinely and innately worthy.

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Just by being here, we all have
these unique special gifts and

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it's not a competition, right?

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We come from an abundant place.

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We come from a place where
there are no limits, right?

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Like we come from this creation
space and we are a piece of that.

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Like we are abundant,
we are expanding, right?

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And we forget that we forget.

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that we don't have
anything to prove, right?

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We get sucked in to that conditioning.

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Right?

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And it's hard.

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I'm not saying it's not hard to break
away from that mindset and that mentality

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feeling like we have to prove ourselves,
but it's something to just think about

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and remind yourself of that you don't
have anything to prove, and that every

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single person is just as worthy and is
just as good as everybody else, right?

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Like I feel like we get stuck in
this competitive mindset where,

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you know, I'm better than you.

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, they're better than me.

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That kind of thing.

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Um, they have more things than I
do, so that means they're better.

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And it it, that's not it.

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That's not it.

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That is false.

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That is, that is an illusion.

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Okay.

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Um, because when it comes down to it,
we are all more than what we have.

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We are all more than the
roles we play, right?

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Like we all have this, this soul,
this spirit, piece of us, right?

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That lives on forever.

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That piece of us that never dies,
that piece of us that's here forever.

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Our essence, that was something we
talked a lot about over our, um,

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three day workshop was our essence.

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Not the content of what we were speaking
on stage, but the essence, what we brought

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to the stage with our essence, right?

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Our presence.

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How are we showing up?

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What is it that we are bringing to the
stage without even saying anything, right?

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. That's something I would love for
every one of you to take a notice

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that, like what is your essence?

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What are you giving to the world
without having to say anything?

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Without having to do anything, right?

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Like you just being with yourself,
just in your space, right?

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Like taking up that space and
just being you and standing tall.

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How are you showing up for the world?

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Because you, a, you have
something to offer, right?

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Your smile, holding the door
open for a stranger , your

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presence that your energy, right?

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What happens when you walk into a room?

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How does that impact the other people?

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The other things that are
going on in that room, right?

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Like how are you showing up?

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It's a really interesting thing
to, to analyze and to take

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a look at and to reflect on.

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Um, we get so caught up, right?

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In these things we feel
like we have to do.

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We have to, to prove ourselves.

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Like I know for me, I spoke about
this a little bit at the, um,

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at the event too, is that you.

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My ego wants me to share the things
that I've accumulated or that, um, you

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know, me and my husband have built with,
you know, his business and these things

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and, um, because I feel like that gives
me some skin in the game or that makes

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me feel like I have something to say.

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But the truth of it is, it's not like
there's so much more to me than that.

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And I like it's, you know what I mean?

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Like it's, it does, it
doesn't mean anything.

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That doesn't equate my worthiness.

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My worthiness isn't about those
accumulations that we have and

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um, it's so easy to forget that.

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And I know when I went to, so the, how
I found out about this speaking workshop

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or this speaking event, is I went to
this Women's Ignite Conference back

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in November, and a friend had invited
me, had never heard of it before.

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And again, I mean, this
was a huge event, right?

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Many, many women there.

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A lot of the women were from the
corporate world again, right?

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And, and here I am in my small, my
small shoes are how I felt, right?

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And I felt like I was small,
like maybe I shouldn't be there.

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That's how I felt walking in there.

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I was very, very nervous,
very self-conscious.

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And people would a, you know,
if people are just trying to get

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to know you, make conversation.

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But one of the first things they
ask you is, so what do you do?

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And I would freeze.

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, I didn't know what to say cause
I feel like I'm kind of in this

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transitional moment, but I, I would
stutter and I would, you know, kind

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of ping pong it, like, oh, well I,
I do real estate, but I'm like not

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trying to do real estate anymore.

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And like, you know, I, I
manage our, our, our rentals.

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But like, I'm trying to write a
book and I have a podcast and I

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don't really know what I'm doing.

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And so it was like I could never
give anybody a straight answer.

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I just would like word vomit all
over everybody that would ask me,

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cause I really didn't know what to
say and it's like I wanted to sound

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intelligent and smart and say something.

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That I knew what I was doing, but
I really had no idea what to say.

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And I started to really doubt myself.

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After that first day.

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I questioned coming back the next day
because I was like, shit, I'm around

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all these women who were, you know, a
lot of them have these job titles that

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they can just sp off, you know, what do
you do when they have something to say?

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Um, and I felt like I didn't,
and I just felt, you know, like,

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again, like, I shouldn't be here.

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This place isn't for me.

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Like I'm in the wrong place.

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Um, but I stayed and I stuck it out.

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And the thing I realized, , every
interaction I had, even though I

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stumbled with what to say, with what
I was doing, they were all just,

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you know, they all just listened and
were interested and, um, you know,

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didn't make me feel like I was small.

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They didn't, you know, they, they
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with me and it wasn't that, you know, I
found out I wasn't that different from

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them because a lot of them were also in
transitions in their careers and didn't

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really know what they were doing either.

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So there was a lot of, um, , like
familiarity or, um, we were able to,

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um, bond over similar experiences
and feelings of feeling like

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we don't know what we're doing.

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I mean, that's a scary place to be when
you're not really sure where you're going

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or what direction or what you wanna do.

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And so a lot of women were actually
there and some of these women like, kind

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of had an idea what they wanted to do.

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And were here this conference
actually to get better ideas of how

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they could, you know, grow certain
businesses or do certain things.

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And so, Actually speaking and talking
and connecting with these women really

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showed me that we're all not far off from
each other as I assumed we were right.

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And I think that's the thing too, is
we always assume that, you know, we see

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people's highlight reels on social media,
or we see people's successes and we just

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assume that, oh, they've got it together.

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They know what they're doing.

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Everything's great and shiny
and bright in their life.

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But the truth of it is we all
are struggling with something.

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I mean, just because someone shows
up every day to and does certain

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things or is successful, doesn't
mean that they're not struggling with

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their relationships at home, right?

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Like relationships are hard
and they have drops and downs.

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Like people are always gonna be struggling
with that to some extent, right?

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Like relationships ebb and flow if
somebody's in a committed relationship,

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they're gonna have, you know, times where
things are hard and times when things

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are great, like that's gonna be something
that's in their mind that they're not

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like probably coming forward with.

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There might be.

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, um, family dramas or stories we don't even
know that they're dealing with, right?

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Or grief that we don't know
people are dealing with.

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Um, people who are just
struggling with balancing, their

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parents or their kids, right?

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Like we never know what's going on behind
closed doors, we don't know the day-to-day

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struggles that people are having
internally, that they're fighting, like

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those internal struggles they're going
with on their day-to-day life, right?

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Like some people might be struggling
with depression or, um, you know,

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some other kind of not visible.

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Illnesses.

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Right?

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Or maybe they are going through their own
like physical health illness that we can't

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physically see, but maybe they're dealing
with like a cancer scare or, abnormal

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test results from something, right?

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You never know what people are carrying
with them in their day-to-day lives,

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but they turn that off and they show up.

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, you know, in their job or they show up
on social media, like everything's great.

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You know what I mean?

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Like, you just never know the depth
of what people are struggling with

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internally, with their intimate
relationships, with their family

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members or their spouses or their kids.

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Everybody struggles.

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And I guess what I wanna get to in
this, episode is just like the humanity

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of connecting with other people
and realizing that we're not so far

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off from each other than we think.

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And that.

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, no one's perfect but like
at the same time, we're all,

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imperfectly perfect, right?

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Like we're all beautiful and we all have
these gifts and, like this greatness to

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offer the world just by being ourselves.

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And what I really am trying to
do, I feel like is really get

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more intimate and vulnerable with
people and connecting and letting

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people know that you are not alone.

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And that so many of us are struggling
with the same things and that

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you're not alone and, and there's people
there for you if you just kind of have to

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open up and be able to share some of these
vulnerabilities and connect with people.

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And sometimes that can be really hard
to do when you feel kind of stuck

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like you, are in this space where
maybe you feel like you can't talk

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to even like your spouse, and I think
that's why, organized religions and

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churches thrive, so well, cause they
offer that kind of community, right?

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But at the same time, there's sometimes
those communities that actually

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end up shutting you out, right?

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Like I've heard stories of that too,
where people are struggling with

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some of these things and they come
to their religious group or their

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community that they thought they had.

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But there's this layer of like judgment
where if you don't fit in this box,

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then we can't really support you.

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And that to me is a problem.

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And so that's something I'm
trying to shift and fix too.

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With You know, trying to build this
online community for women to have a

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safe space, like it doesn't matter.

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You don't have to fit into
a box to be supported.

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We support you no matter what, and
we're not gonna try to make you fit.

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Like you get to come as you are and
we're gonna support you no matter what.

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And that's something
that I'm trying to build.

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But I just need you guys to know
that you're never alone and that

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there's more people that are
struggling than you might realize.

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And you know, if they're.

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I just, my, my wish or my hope is
that more people could rise up and

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share their vulnerabilities with
others to have these real intimate

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connections with each other to see how.

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, you know, similar.

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We really are.

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And how, you know, there really isn't
this, I'm better than you attitude, right?

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Like, I feel like that's just a facade
and really it's just to hide insecurities.

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And the thing is, is
we're all insecure, right?

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Like we all have these insecurities
and really, I feel like when people are

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trying to show up and talk about their
successes or whatever, like some of it

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is like, you know, you do need to be
proud of yourself for doing things right?

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That's, it's great to accomplish
things, but at the same time it's this,

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we're trying to reassure ourselves and
we're trying to like prove our worth.

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That's, that to me is what we're doing
when we're like sharing those things.

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We're trying to like validate
ourselves in what we're doing, right?

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Like we're trying to prove
ourselves with the things we do.

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And, you know, how different could things
be if we just kind of took off those,

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like the, the facade of all that and just
like saw each other for who we really are.

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If you've ever done a yoga class,
you know, you always end it

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with this, this namaste, right?

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And there's different interpretations
to it, but essentially what it

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means is that the light in me
sees and honors the light in you.

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And what it's really talking about
is like that inner light, this inner

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light that we all have that that
higher self, the part that connect,

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like we're all connected, right?

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Like if you think of
it as like a web, like.

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We are all connected.

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We are all one.

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We all come from the same source.

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There's a piece of us that is shared
and each and every one of us that's

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that's shared from our source, from
our creator, and it's connecting

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every single one of us together.

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And if we could really take off
everything else and just see that pure

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divine light within each and every
one of us, if we could just see that.

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Like, what an amazing
world this place would be.

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Right?

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If we could strip away all the
everything else and just see each

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other for who we really are, which
is that, that divine light, right?

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Like our soul or higher selves.

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There was a beautiful image, and if
I can find it, I will link it to the

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description as podcast, but as an
image of these two adults, I think

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it might be a female and a male.

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Figure, and they're sitting
back to back, right?

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Like their backs are laid up against
each other, and they're both crouched

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with their, you know, kind of hugging
their knees in this, um, angry,

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sad, upset kind of state, right?

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And they're both, they're both
looking away from each other.

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Their backs are faced, you know, but
they're back to back and inside of them

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are children and the two children, Are
putting their hands up to each other

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like this, facing each other, right?

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It's almost like you're seeing
that within each one of us as

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this inner wounded child, right?

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That we're all just these beautiful,
innocent children inside, right?

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That just wanna be loved, just wanna
be seen and accepted for who we are.

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And we grow up as these adults put,
putting on our masks and, and these

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walls to, you know, to toughen up and to
like shield out all the hurt and pain.

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and then we're suffering alone
instead of realizing that internally

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we are all these little children
that just want the same things.

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So that's the image I want to leave you
guys with, with this episode is that we're

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really not that far off from each other.

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Right?

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And the next time, if you find
yourself walking in to a, a room of

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people you think that maybe you don't
fit in with, or that you're feeling

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less than to remember that we're all

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we're all just the same, right?

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We're all just wanting to be seen, wanting
to be loved and accepted for who we are.

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And the realness of it is you've
gotta accept and love yourself, right?

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It comes from loving yourself
and realizing that inner divinity

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that's within you, and then
seeing that in everyone else.

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I hope this hits something with
you, or at least got you thinking.

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I would love to hear from you.

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Let me know if this episode
resonated with you at all.

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If you got anything from it.

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I love getting the text
messages and the dms.

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I'm not gonna give out my number publicly.

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That's just for personal friends.

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But if you wanna give me, um,
a DM on Instagram or Facebook,

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that's where I'm at, mostly just
slide in my dms and let me know.

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Share with me anything that you
took away from this episode, because

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that's what pumps me up and keeps me
showing up for you guys every week and

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it motivates me to keep showing up for
you and speaking what's in my soul.

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And, um, I appreciate
all the support and love.

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Like I hope you know how
much that means to me.

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It's amazing.

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Um, so please, I love the feedback.

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, I hope you guys had a wonderful
week, stay beautiful and strong and

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know that you are amazing and worth
it, and that you have this amazing

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divine light that's within you.

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Let that light shine, my friend.

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Let it shine.

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I'll see you guys next week.

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Peace.