Oct. 20, 2022
12. Everything Happens for a Reason Part 1 -Taking a new perspective on life
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Do you believe everything happens for a reason? That all the good, bad, and ugly that transpire throughout our lives all has a purpose?
I share some insights and personal stories to inspire you to really think about your life, and see if you can gain a higher perspective and see a reason for it all.
To perhaps see things a little differently or find inspiration or motivation to make it through those times that feel impossible to get through.
Life is all about how we look at it. I am inviting you to see it through a positive light that can change your life into one of finding joy, humor, and having fun.
The positive light can be infectious and I am here to help light you up so we can light up the world ❤️✨
Find me on facebook or instagram @chelsea.vanbuskirk or at ChelseaVanBuskirk.com
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Hey, everyone is Chelsea VanBuskirk
with the Heart AF podcast.
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Hope all is well today for you.
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I want to know if you believe that
everything happens for a reason.
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I do.
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And it's a hard, concept when you
really start to look at that more
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deeply and what that actually means, and
that there is a reason for everything
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that you experienced in your life.
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There is a reason that you pass
by the people that you pass by.
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There is a reason why certain
people come into your awareness.
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There's a reason for every
relationship, whether a
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relationship thrives or it fails.
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There's a reason for it.
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Everything that we experience
everything that we encounter in our
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life there's always a reason for it.
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Okay.
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And a lot of the times we don't
really understand or can comprehend
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what that reason might be.
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But we have to believe and have that
faith that there is a greater perspective
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that maybe we're not just tapping into
at that moment or in that experience.
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And some of the things we go through,
are hard as fuck, they're painful.
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I mean, those are experiences that
can be earth shattering can be quite
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transformational for us, but it seems
that anybody I've ever known that's
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gone through just the worst of the
worst that has been through pain, when
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they make it through that hurt, when
they can take those experiences and
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find purpose and find transformation
and the things that they accomplish
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after they get through those things.
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Those people are so remarkable.
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Those are the people that
create change in this world for
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the betterment of everyone.
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Right.
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I don't know if you're someone who
believes in the collective or this theory
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that we're all connected or all as one.
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Bob Marley used to say one love, one
heart and that really is a perspective
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that you can gain when you, really work
on self-growth and your spirituality
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to know that we all are connected.
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Every single thing that you
can see is all connected it
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all, comes from the same place.
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We all come from the same place and we
all go back to the same place, right?
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We're all in these finite bodies that
have an expiration date, but there's
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a piece of us that does not expire.
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There's a piece of us that
comes from our creator.
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There is that piece that
is always connected.
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And everything.
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And everyone that is created all
has a piece of that creation.
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Like we're all bound together by
this single thread of creation . And
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whether you believe that or
not, that is totally up to you.
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And I think everybody's spiritual
journey is unique and to their own.
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And the last thing I want to do here
is feel like I'm preaching to you
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or making you feel like you have
to believe the things that I do or
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that the way that I see things is
the only way that they can be seen.
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Like that is not true at all.
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I think we all have our own unique
perspectives on life and on spirituality.
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I'm just here to give you my
perspectives and my insights.
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And if that's something that sparks
in you to do your own research or
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asking more questions and finding
out, like leading you down a path of
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self growth or your own spiritual,
discovery, I think that's fantastic.
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And honestly, that's what my mission
is it's not necessarily to say that
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you should believe certain things,
but my mission is to have you,
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find the spark that's within you.
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That spark that is from your creator.
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I want you to embrace
the you, that is you.
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I want you to listen to your intuition
and tap into the power you have within
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you to co-create a life that you can love.
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That is what we're meant to do.
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And it sounds a little woo-woo and I know
that I used to be part of a woo-woo group.
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Ha!
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Shout out to them if they
ever come across my podcast.
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But, I know how that can sound right, but.
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There's a reason why people talk about,
the law of attraction and manifestation,
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like all of that stuff is real.
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I mean, you can read a lot of books about
that, and there are so many different
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ways you can go about spiritual discovery.
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But today, I want to talk about
everything happening for a reason, and
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to really look at what that means.
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And to give you a few examples on
what that has looked like in my life.
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So, I've told you the story a bit
about my dad getting in an accident.
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So he's 29 years old, right?
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If you're not 29 yet,
I mean, God bless you.
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It's awesome to be in your twenties, but.
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Think back to when you were 29 and
imagine losing all of your ability to
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walk, to feed yourself, to go to the
bathroom by yourself, to dress yourself,
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like literally losing all of your
mobility and being fully dependent.
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Can you imagine that for yourself?
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Like, could you imagine what kind
of life that would mean for you?
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I think about that and
I'm like, oh my gosh.
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That has gotta be so hard to just wake up
from an accident and realize that you're
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no longer going to be able to walk again.
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No longer can reproduce.
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You can't have sex.
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You can't do all these things.
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You can't dance.
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Like all these things in your life
that you enjoyed and love doing now,
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you're not able to do that anymore.
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Like, that's gotta be a terrifying concept
to comprehend and then realizing how
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you're gonna move forward in your life in
this new body and these new restrictions.
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Like how can you enjoy life?
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Right.
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I think that's something that's very
real and you can see it, like when I
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would go into the hospital, and see
all these people who are newly afflicted
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by, either a traumatic brain injury or
newly afflicted by a spinal cord injury
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that left them disabled in some way.
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And there were some people who
made some remarkable recoveries
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and were able to walk again.
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My dad was a story that
was not the case for him.
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Right.
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That wasn't part of his plan.
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Like a lot of people have to deal
with that, to where they literally
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are going to be immobilized
for the rest of their lives.
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And that's a hard concept to come to
terms with, and you can see the pain
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in those people's eyes, and you can
see the fear and there are people
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who do lose their will to live.
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Right.
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And you can see them
just slowly deteriorate.
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They turn to addictions or they
just, don't see that positive outlook
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or a way to still enjoy life within
their, disabled bodies and things.
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But my dad was one of those men
that had a positive attitude.
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He chose humor.
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He chose to view life at what are
the things that he CAN do, right.
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And it's again, talking about that focus.
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I talked about that on the last episode
or one of the previous episodes about,
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if you focus on what's missing, then
you're going to receive more of what's
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missing in your life, but if you can
focus on being grateful and focusing on
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what you DO have, then that's when you
start receiving more of that, right?
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Like if you focus on what you
want, then that's how you get it.
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But if you focus on what you
don't want, if you focus on the
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lack, if you're focusing on that
negative, then that's what you're
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gonna attract back to yourself.
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If you can focus on what you want
and what you can see for yourself and
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the positive outcomes and focusing
everything that's available to you,
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then that's when you start getting
those opportunities and the magic starts
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happening and things start clicking and
things start showing up in your life.
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It's so amazing when you can get in that.
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And it's really all about your
mindset and what attitude you're
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giving to a certain problem.
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What are you giving your power to?
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Are you giving your
power to what's possible?
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Or are you giving your power
to ' that can't happen for me, that's
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impossible, that'll never work' right?
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It's all about switching that lens and
switching the way you look at things.
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So my dad having his accident and
being able to be this role model of
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someone who just still went after life.
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Like he looked at life
like what can I do now?
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Fully imobile.
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What can I do?
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He found a program, at Denver
community college called computer
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programming for the handicapped.
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Okay.
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So once he was rehabilitated,
learned how to drive a wheelchair.
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He went and found a program, got
a certification in it, and he was
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then able to work on a computer
with a tool called a mouth stick.
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If you're not watching the video, I
will describe it, but it was essentially
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this long stick and a bite plate on it.
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So he would stick this bite plate on
his teeth and hold it with his teeth.
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And it'd be this one long stick and that
one stick would act as like a finger and
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he can manipulate the keyboard and do
basically everything we can do with like
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a mouse and everything, but with the keys.
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So there are certain keys
you can do on the keyboard.
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So it's really amazing how they
can make the computer accessible
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for people who have disabilities.
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So he was went through this training
program learned how to do computer
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programming with one stick, right?
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So he is doing things that people do
with all 10 fingers with one finger.
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And he was able to type just as fast as
somebody with 10 fingers with one finger.
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Like that's how he trained himself.
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And he got a job and he worked his
way up and he worked 15 years at a
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place here in, Denver, Colorado,
but he did computer programming
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or database analysis type work.
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I don't know, over my head, but
essentially he had a great job that
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was able to provide for his daughter.
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You know, he was a disabled single dad.
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Went back to work with his disability
and was able to provide for me.
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And also my grandmother who has retired
and she was a lot older and she really,
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I mean, I'm so grateful to her that she
spent her old age and retirement helping
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take care of my dad and me together.
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And you know, if it wasn't for her, my
dad probably wouldn't have been able
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to get custody of me and thank God.
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So again, everything happens for a reason.
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Like holy shit, how amazing that my dad
then was able to take care of my grandma.
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Like by providing for her
financially and giving her a home.
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And then my grandma in turn
was able to help my dad raise
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me, and help out with my dad.
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And then I was able to
help take care of them.
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So as my grandma's started getting
older and needing more help.
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And I'll tell you this, oh,
this is a great, I can't believe
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this story just came to me.
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This story I think I actually talk
about in my book too, but in high
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school, I was a little bit of a rebel.
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I'll be honest.
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I'm really scared for what the
payback is going to be with my
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kids, especially my daughters, but.
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I didn't go to school a lot.
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especially my senior year, because, each
day of the week was a different day.
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So I think like our school
was red and green days because
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those were our school colors.
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But on the one day I only had one class.
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So it was really hard to go
to school just for one class.
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So there was a lot of
times I just didn't go.
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And one morning I did not go.
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And I came upstairs because my room was
in the basement and my grandma was slumped
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like over her chair and unresponsive.
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And, luckily I ran over
and got my neighbor.
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My neighbor helped me get her
to the hospital and she got
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into the hospital just in time.
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But if I had gone to school
that day, she probably would've
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died right there in the chair.
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And that would have been it, but
because I didn't go to school.
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Because little teenager hell
fire Chelsea didn't go to school.
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She was able to save her grandma's life.
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And not only that, my grandma.
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Was extremely sick.
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She had sepsis really bad, like
she was in the ICU for a couple
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of weeks and she actually had to
rehabilitate for about three months.
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Learning how to walk again.
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Like she was in a wheelchair too.
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And, it was just me, my
dad and my grandma's.
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So then I had two people
in wheelchairs, right.
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And it's my senior year of high school.
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It was a lot, but I did it.
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And what's great is my grandma went
on to live for , I think five more
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years after that she got to see me
give birth to my first daughter.
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She saw me graduate high school.
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She got to enjoy so many
more years of life because I
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didn't go to school that day.
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So again, Things happen
for a reason, right?
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Like it was awesome because she was
able to continue on and live more
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life and , you just never know, right?
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You never know why things happen the
way they do until sometimes you can
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look back and be like, oh my gosh,
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Shortly after high school, I guess it was
a couple of years after high school but
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I'll tell you.
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I went through a lot of stuff in my,
late teenage years where there was a
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lot of like medical family emergencies.
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And so after my grandma had rehabilitated
and everything, like I spent my college
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years taking care of her, driving her
back and forth to doctor's appointments.
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Helping take care of my dad.
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Like I was helping do the dinners
and all these kinds of things.
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And then , I was in a relationship
with my now husband and I was balancing
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college and nannying, I worked
as a nanny during those years too.
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And, my dad had developed a
bedsore almost like overnight.
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It seemed like, and it was very bad,
he was hospitalized in 2008, And that
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bedsore, was kind of the starting point
of us transitioning to get him moved
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back to his hometown in New Mexico, where
there'd be a lot more family around.
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And one of his, longtime
favorite caregivers that,
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I met when I was nine and he
was in his twenties, and he took
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care of my dad on the weekends.
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He was my dad's CNA.
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And he is originally from
New Mexico, which is where my
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dad's originally from as well.
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And anyway, so fast forward.
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He had moved back to New
Mexico and was living there.
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And so I had talked with him, we had
talked to some people in New Mexico,
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and basically we were arranging for
my dad and grandma to relocate back
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to their hometown in New Mexico.
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So they could be near , my dad's
brother and sister, my grandma
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could be with her other two kids.
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So that way, there'd be lots of cousins
and kids and everybody could kind of chip
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in and help take care of her because I was
by myself, up in Colorado with no family.
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It was just me.
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And I'm trying to go to college.
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I'm trying to have this relationship.
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That's like growing, like we were
talking marriage and all these
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things, and so miraculously,
everything came together, right?
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I'm going to say his
name, his name's Jake.
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He's most amazing man ever.
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He is a brother to me.
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And, he, became my dad's 24
7 caregiver in New Mexico.
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They lived together for a while until he
got another house and things like that.
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But, if it wasn't for him, I don't
know if everything would have fallen
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into place for my dad to be able to be
self-sufficient set up in New Mexico.
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But, Jumping around again.
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Here's my ADHD.
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But that summer, when he was in
the hospital is when they started
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building him a house in New Mexico
and we got things kind of put in
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place for him to relocate there.
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It's the year I got engaged.
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And so at this spinal cord injury
hospital he had to go through
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all this stuff with the bedsore.
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It was really bad.
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Like he had to be, in bed for, I think
it was like 60 days or something crazy.
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It was intense.
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And again, I'm taking care of my
grandma and it's all the things like I'm
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doing all this stuff and he recovered.
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Was in New Mexico he was
thriving, doing great.
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My grandma passed in 2010.
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Fast forward.
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It's 2017 and I'm talking
to my dad on the phone.
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We would talk every single day.
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And I noticed something that night,
like he wasn't sounding right.
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And he was by himself.
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At his home.
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Cause my, you know, my, after my
grandma died, he basically was
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at home by himself and Jake had
gotten married and had other kids.
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So he was with his family
and stuff like that.
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So my dad would be alone for periods of
time during the day, which is not unusual.
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Um, he's pretty self-sufficient he can do
most things and he would just have people
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come in at certain times of the day for
snacks and lunch and taking him to work
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and taking him home and all that stuff.
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But it was one of those transition
periods when no one was there and
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I'm talking to him on the phone
and he's not sounding right.
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Like something's off, something's wrong.
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And so I remember I had called
Jake and he wasn't available.
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He didn't answer.
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And so I called my cousin, who's
my sister, she's my sister to me.
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, we're twins.
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We actually look a lot alike.
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we are only 11 months apart.
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I'm going to talk about her in other
episodes, because that's another thing
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that's one of those like, holy shit, the
way things pan out and people's lives.
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But anyway, we'll get to that.
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Called her to go check on him
and, My dad was like blue.
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Okay.
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So she, you know, got 9 1, 1.
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I don't even remember how
it all went down, but.
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Essentially when they got to my dad,
like his oxygen level was extremely
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low, they had to , intubate him
and, airlift him to Lubbock, Texas.
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From New Mexico, because that
was the closest hospital that
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could take such a severe case.
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And so he was airlifted.
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I flew out the very first flight I
could get to meet him in Lubbock.
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I was in Lubbock with him for
six weeks away from my family.
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It was a roller coaster.
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There was so many ups and downs, you
know, he thought he was going to die.
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He told me like he, had a conversation
before he fully went unconscious,
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with me when I first arrived.
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And he expected not to make it out.
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And, Anyway, he did.
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He did.
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He made it out and I fought like hell to
get him transferred from Texas to Denver.
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So that I could still be with my family,
but still be able to check in on him
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and make sure I was his advocate inside
the hospital and things like that.
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Because let me tell you, if you
ever do have a family member that is
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hospitalized, it's so important to stay
on top of things and make sure your
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family member gets the care they need.
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Because hospitals are busy.
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Okay.
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Things get overlooked.
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The staff, like nurses
are worked to the bone.
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They don't have enough help that they need
and because of politics and stupid shit.
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They're overworked and
things can get missed.
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And so it's really important that
if you have a family member and you
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want the best care, you have got
to be that second set of eyes and
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make sure things are going well.
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Because you need to be your
family's advocate because
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things can go easily missed.
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There are so many great
nurses and doctors out there.
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So I'm not knocking that.
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It's just that a lot of them are
overworked and there's not enough
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people to come in and relieve them.
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There's, not enough
employees, it's a problem.
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So just a little side note there.
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If you do have people to make sure you,
are an advocate for somebody that may
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not be able to advocate for themselves.
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So I ended up getting it done.
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We got the transfer done.
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It took a lot of work and tears and
screaming and me being an asshole
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to a lot of people, but we got it.
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We got him to Denver and he had
to be in like the regular hospital
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for a bit, but then eventually
transferred , back to Craig hospital,
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which I had mentioned before is a
rehabilitation hospital because my dad
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had lost oxygen to the brain, like so
much had changed with that sickness.
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Like he lost his ability to speak clearly
he lost a lot of the mobility he did have,
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so he did have to re habilitate so much.
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He lost a lot of independence that
he once had after that sickness.
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And it was in this hospital stay
where there was two nurses and one
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CNA that my dad got close with,
they were just were so great.
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And we developed such
a great relationship.
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And I think we had exchanged
numbers at some point, because,
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after my dad's 60 day stay.
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He had to go back home to New Mexico,
which was also super heartbreaking
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for me, but, , I stayed in touch with
some of the nurses and, you know, I
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think it was a couple months later when
one of them called me and was like,
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yeah, I remember the school your kids
went to, will you tell me about that?
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I'm thinking about taking my kids to that
school and I was, a realtor at the time.
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I still technically am.
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I just don't do that anymore,
but at the time I was still
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active as a real estate agent.
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And so anyway , I ended up
helping her buy a house.
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And her kids went to the school my
kids went to, and then the other nurse
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also, I helped sell and buy her house.
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They all moved to the
kind of in the same area.
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And then all of our kids were
going to the same school together.
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And it was just so crazy how, my
dad getting sick and going to the
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hospital, led to me meeting these
people and led to this friendship.
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And now to this day, now we're here,
five years later and me and this girl
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are still very close and she's going
through some big transitions in her life.
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And I've been able to be a part of
it in that I'm supporting her and
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I'm so proud of her because she's
doing things in her life for the first
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time where she's making choices based
on herself, which she expressed me.
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And that's like the first time in her
life she's ever done that because a lot
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of times when we're making choices were
making them based on what our parents
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think or what other people think we should
be doing or what we think we're supposed
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to, instead of what we really want.
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And so she's just made this big
life decision based purely for
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her health, for her wellbeing.
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And it is just so empowering to see.
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And, I think the more people share those
stories, it gives other people permission
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to also do their own empowering moves
in life or they get to finally speak
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up for themselves for once or choose
themselves for once and make decisions
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based on what they need versus on
what they think they should be doing.
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What other people are expecting
them to do like this just touches on
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everything or bleeds into everything.
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And, I'm getting a little long-winded
on this thing, but I just wanted
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to take a moment to say like, just
because you're going through a hard
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time right now, or things might be,
like, " why did this happen to me?"
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Right.
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I've asked myself that question
many times throughout my life.
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Right.
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There's going to be a point when you're
going to be like, I'm so glad that did
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happen, because if that didn't happen,
then this wouldn't have happened.
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I think about if my dad wouldn't
have gotten hurt, I don't know would
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my mom and dad still be together?
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Like, I don't know what
would have happened.
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What I've grown up in his small town,
in New Mexico, would I have had a
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completely different upbringing.
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I wouldn't have been able to
meet my husband, Nick probably.
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And I so know that my relationship
with him is so meant to be because
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there's so much growth that has
happened between our relationship.
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That's another episode is relationships
and how that helps us grow.
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Every relationship, all the good, bad,
the ugly, like it's all for our growth.
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And that's why sometimes you see people
who get into a cycle of finding the same
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type of person in their relationships,
because they need to learn a lesson.
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Like they're getting shown the same
lesson over and over until they can
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finally learn the lesson and move forward
and move on, another episode for that.
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But, I'm going to jump off because
I don't like to make these too long.
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So I want them to be bite-sized
where people can stay attentive
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and really get the message, but
just really think about that.
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Really think about everything
happens for a reason.
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And see if you can think of the
things in your life, like the ripple
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effect of certain situations that you
encounter or certain people you come
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into contact with, or an experience
you may have, like every experience has
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this ripple effect of how life goes and
it's just amazingly beautiful, how it
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all works out and how so many things
become connected and how sometimes
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people come in and out of your life..
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Like, it's so strange,
but also so amazing.
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And, I just express gratitude
for my own experiences.
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Like I'm so glad for everything
happening the way it did, like
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the good, the bad, ugly, all
of it, all the pain, everything.
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Because if all those things that didn't
happen, I wouldn't be where I am today.
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And I'm so happy with where I'm at today.
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I'm happy at the growth I've done.
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I'm happy at the healing I've had to do.
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And it's getting me closer and closer
to feeling where everything's aligned.
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Like I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be.
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And that's an amazing feeling to
just feel so free and that you're
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doing what you're meant to be doing.
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Like that feeling is just.
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Wow.
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Right?
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Like it's so amazing.
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And I want everybody to feel that.
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I want everybody to get to that
place where they're proud, where
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they're excited about life.
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Where they're feeling good because
everything is just like, Your
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vibein' high like you're connected.
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And you're just feeling like you're on
that right path, that trajectory, and
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you're like are walking with your faith,
like knowing that you're in the right
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direction, like you're manifesting you're
co-creating like, I want people to get
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there because it is so awesome, when
you find your power, that's what it is.
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I want you to find the power.
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That's why I am being the light,
because I want to light others
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up because when others are lit
up, it helps others light up.
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It's a ripple effect where the
light just it's like the candle.
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Like you take one candle, which
lights, the other candle, which lights
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that candle, like it just spreads.
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And you think about it, like on a
worldwide level, on that collective level?
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Like what I touched on before, if more
people are up, and shining their light.
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That's what bleeds out darkness.
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Remember Martin Luther king Jr.
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Was saying.
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Darkness cannot eradicate darkness.
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Only light can do that.
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The same thing hate.
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You can't kill hate with more
hate, only love can do that.
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And that's what life's about is about
finding that light, finding the love.
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And if we can all get to that place, like
as a collective, like if enough of us can
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do that, then we can smother the darkness
with light and bring love to hate.
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I know that sounds woo woo or Like
my head in the clouds type of
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thing, but, I don't know, man.
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Like I believe it, I believe it.
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And it's on every individual to what
they believe, but I believe it.
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I'm going to wrap it up with that.
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So, be the light.
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Know, that everything
happens for a reason.
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If you have any feedback, have
anything you want to let me know,
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hit me in the DM's on Instagram or
Facebook @chelsea.vanbuskirk you
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can find me at chelseavanbuskirk.com
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I've got a link there for you guys
to download my high vibe playlist.
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I highly recommend it help you boost those
vibes up and I'll see you guys next week.
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Okay, Peace!
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Hey, everyone is Chelsea VanBuskirk
with the Heart AF podcast.
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Hope all is well today for you.
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I want to know if you believe that
everything happens for a reason.
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I do.
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And it's a hard, concept when you
really start to look at that more
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deeply and what that actually means, and
that there is a reason for everything
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that you experienced in your life.
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There is a reason that you pass
by the people that you pass by.
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There is a reason why certain
people come into your awareness.
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There's a reason for every
relationship, whether a
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relationship thrives or it fails.
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There's a reason for it.
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Everything that we experience
everything that we encounter in our
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life there's always a reason for it.
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Okay.
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And a lot of the times we don't
really understand or can comprehend
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what that reason might be.
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But we have to believe and have that
faith that there is a greater perspective
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that maybe we're not just tapping into
at that moment or in that experience.
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And some of the things we go through,
are hard as fuck, they're painful.
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I mean, those are experiences that
can be earth shattering can be quite
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transformational for us, but it seems
that anybody I've ever known that's
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gone through just the worst of the
worst that has been through pain, when
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they make it through that hurt, when
they can take those experiences and
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find purpose and find transformation
and the things that they accomplish
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after they get through those things.
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Those people are so remarkable.
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Those are the people that
create change in this world for
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the betterment of everyone.
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Right.
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I don't know if you're someone who
believes in the collective or this theory
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that we're all connected or all as one.
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Bob Marley used to say one love, one
heart and that really is a perspective
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that you can gain when you, really work
on self-growth and your spirituality
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to know that we all are connected.
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Every single thing that you
can see is all connected it
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all, comes from the same place.
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We all come from the same place and we
all go back to the same place, right?
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We're all in these finite bodies that
have an expiration date, but there's
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a piece of us that does not expire.
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There's a piece of us that
comes from our creator.
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There is that piece that
is always connected.
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And everything.
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And everyone that is created all
has a piece of that creation.
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Like we're all bound together by
this single thread of creation . And
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whether you believe that or
not, that is totally up to you.
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And I think everybody's spiritual
journey is unique and to their own.
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And the last thing I want to do here
is feel like I'm preaching to you
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or making you feel like you have
to believe the things that I do or
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that the way that I see things is
the only way that they can be seen.
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Like that is not true at all.
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I think we all have our own unique
perspectives on life and on spirituality.
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I'm just here to give you my
perspectives and my insights.
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And if that's something that sparks
in you to do your own research or
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asking more questions and finding
out, like leading you down a path of
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self growth or your own spiritual,
discovery, I think that's fantastic.
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And honestly, that's what my mission
is it's not necessarily to say that
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you should believe certain things,
but my mission is to have you,
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find the spark that's within you.
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That spark that is from your creator.
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I want you to embrace
the you, that is you.
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I want you to listen to your intuition
and tap into the power you have within
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you to co-create a life that you can love.
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That is what we're meant to do.
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And it sounds a little woo-woo and I know
that I used to be part of a woo-woo group.
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Ha!
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Shout out to them if they
ever come across my podcast.
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But, I know how that can sound right, but.
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There's a reason why people talk about,
the law of attraction and manifestation,
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like all of that stuff is real.
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I mean, you can read a lot of books about
that, and there are so many different
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ways you can go about spiritual discovery.
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But today, I want to talk about
everything happening for a reason, and
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to really look at what that means.
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And to give you a few examples on
what that has looked like in my life.
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So, I've told you the story a bit
about my dad getting in an accident.
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So he's 29 years old, right?
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If you're not 29 yet,
I mean, God bless you.
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It's awesome to be in your twenties, but.
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Think back to when you were 29 and
imagine losing all of your ability to
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walk, to feed yourself, to go to the
bathroom by yourself, to dress yourself,
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like literally losing all of your
mobility and being fully dependent.
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Can you imagine that for yourself?
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Like, could you imagine what kind
of life that would mean for you?
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I think about that and
I'm like, oh my gosh.
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That has gotta be so hard to just wake up
from an accident and realize that you're
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no longer going to be able to walk again.
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No longer can reproduce.
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You can't have sex.
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You can't do all these things.
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You can't dance.
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Like all these things in your life
that you enjoyed and love doing now,
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you're not able to do that anymore.
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Like, that's gotta be a terrifying concept
to comprehend and then realizing how
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you're gonna move forward in your life in
this new body and these new restrictions.
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Like how can you enjoy life?
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I think that's something that's very
real and you can see it, like when I
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would go into the hospital, and see
all these people who are newly afflicted
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by, either a traumatic brain injury or
newly afflicted by a spinal cord injury
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that left them disabled in some way.
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And there were some people who
made some remarkable recoveries
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and were able to walk again.
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My dad was a story that
was not the case for him.
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Right.
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That wasn't part of his plan.
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Like a lot of people have to deal
with that, to where they literally
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are going to be immobilized
for the rest of their lives.
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And that's a hard concept to come to
terms with, and you can see the pain
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in those people's eyes, and you can
see the fear and there are people
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who do lose their will to live.
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Right.
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And you can see them
just slowly deteriorate.
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They turn to addictions or they
just, don't see that positive outlook
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or a way to still enjoy life within
their, disabled bodies and things.
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But my dad was one of those men
that had a positive attitude.
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He chose humor.
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He chose to view life at what are
the things that he CAN do, right.
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And it's again, talking about that focus.
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I talked about that on the last episode
or one of the previous episodes about,
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if you focus on what's missing, then
you're going to receive more of what's
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missing in your life, but if you can
focus on being grateful and focusing on
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what you DO have, then that's when you
start receiving more of that, right?
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Like if you focus on what you
want, then that's how you get it.
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But if you focus on what you
don't want, if you focus on the
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lack, if you're focusing on that
negative, then that's what you're
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gonna attract back to yourself.
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If you can focus on what you want
and what you can see for yourself and
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the positive outcomes and focusing
everything that's available to you,
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then that's when you start getting
those opportunities and the magic starts
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happening and things start clicking and
things start showing up in your life.
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It's so amazing when you can get in that.
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And it's really all about your
mindset and what attitude you're
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giving to a certain problem.
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What are you giving your power to?
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Are you giving your
power to what's possible?
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Or are you giving your power
to ' that can't happen for me, that's
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impossible, that'll never work' right?
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It's all about switching that lens and
switching the way you look at things.
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So my dad having his accident and
being able to be this role model of
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someone who just still went after life.
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Like he looked at life
like what can I do now?
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Fully imobile.
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What can I do?
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He found a program, at Denver
community college called computer
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programming for the handicapped.
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So once he was rehabilitated,
learned how to drive a wheelchair.
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He went and found a program, got
a certification in it, and he was
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then able to work on a computer
with a tool called a mouth stick.
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If you're not watching the video, I
will describe it, but it was essentially
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this long stick and a bite plate on it.
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So he would stick this bite plate on
his teeth and hold it with his teeth.
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And it'd be this one long stick and that
one stick would act as like a finger and
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he can manipulate the keyboard and do
basically everything we can do with like
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a mouse and everything, but with the keys.
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So there are certain keys
you can do on the keyboard.
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So it's really amazing how they
can make the computer accessible
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for people who have disabilities.
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So he was went through this training
program learned how to do computer
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programming with one stick, right?
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So he is doing things that people do
with all 10 fingers with one finger.
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And he was able to type just as fast as
somebody with 10 fingers with one finger.
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Like that's how he trained himself.
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And he got a job and he worked his
way up and he worked 15 years at a
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place here in, Denver, Colorado,
but he did computer programming
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or database analysis type work.
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I don't know, over my head, but
essentially he had a great job that
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was able to provide for his daughter.
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You know, he was a disabled single dad.
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Went back to work with his disability
and was able to provide for me.
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And also my grandmother who has retired
and she was a lot older and she really,
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I mean, I'm so grateful to her that she
spent her old age and retirement helping
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take care of my dad and me together.
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And you know, if it wasn't for her, my
dad probably wouldn't have been able
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to get custody of me and thank God.
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Like holy shit, how amazing that my dad
then was able to take care of my grandma.
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Like by providing for her
financially and giving her a home.
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And then my grandma in turn
was able to help my dad raise
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me, and help out with my dad.
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help take care of them.
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So as my grandma's started getting
older and needing more help.
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this is a great, I can't believe
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this story just came to me.
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This story I think I actually talk
about in my book too, but in high
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school, I was a little bit of a rebel.
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I'll be honest.
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I'm really scared for what the
payback is going to be with my
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kids, especially my daughters, but.
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I didn't go to school a lot.
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especially my senior year, because, each
day of the week was a different day.
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So I think like our school
was red and green days because
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those were our school colors.
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But on the one day I only had one class.
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So it was really hard to go
to school just for one class.
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So there was a lot of
times I just didn't go.
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And one morning I did not go.
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And I came upstairs because my room was
in the basement and my grandma was slumped
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like over her chair and unresponsive.
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And, luckily I ran over
and got my neighbor.
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My neighbor helped me get her
to the hospital and she got
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into the hospital just in time.
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But if I had gone to school
that day, she probably would've
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died right there in the chair.
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And that would have been it, but
because I didn't go to school.
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Because little teenager hell
fire Chelsea didn't go to school.
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She was able to save her grandma's life.
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And not only that, my grandma.
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Was extremely sick.
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She had sepsis really bad, like
she was in the ICU for a couple
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of weeks and she actually had to
rehabilitate for about three months.
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Learning how to walk again.
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Like she was in a wheelchair too.
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And, it was just me, my
dad and my grandma's.
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So then I had two people
in wheelchairs, right.
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And it's my senior year of high school.
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It was a lot, but I did it.
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And what's great is my grandma went
on to live for , I think five more
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years after that she got to see me
give birth to my first daughter.
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She saw me graduate high school.
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She got to enjoy so many
more years of life because I
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didn't go to school that day.
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So again, Things happen
for a reason, right?
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Like it was awesome because she was
able to continue on and live more
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life and , you just never know, right?
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You never know why things happen the
way they do until sometimes you can
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look back and be like, oh my gosh,
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Shortly after high school, I guess it was
a couple of years after high school but
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I'll tell you.
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I went through a lot of stuff in my,
late teenage years where there was a
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lot of like medical family emergencies.
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And so after my grandma had rehabilitated
and everything, like I spent my college
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years taking care of her, driving her
back and forth to doctor's appointments.
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Helping take care of my dad.
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Like I was helping do the dinners
and all these kinds of things.
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And then , I was in a relationship
with my now husband and I was balancing
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college and nannying, I worked
as a nanny during those years too.
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And, my dad had developed a
bedsore almost like overnight.
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It seemed like, and it was very bad,
he was hospitalized in 2008, And that
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bedsore, was kind of the starting point
of us transitioning to get him moved
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back to his hometown in New Mexico, where
there'd be a lot more family around.
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And one of his, longtime
favorite caregivers that,
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I met when I was nine and he
was in his twenties, and he took
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care of my dad on the weekends.
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He was my dad's CNA.
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And he is originally from
New Mexico, which is where my
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dad's originally from as well.
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And anyway, so fast forward.
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He had moved back to New
Mexico and was living there.
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And so I had talked with him, we had
talked to some people in New Mexico,
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and basically we were arranging for
my dad and grandma to relocate back
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to their hometown in New Mexico.
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So they could be near , my dad's
brother and sister, my grandma
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could be with her other two kids.
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So that way, there'd be lots of cousins
and kids and everybody could kind of chip
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in and help take care of her because I was
by myself, up in Colorado with no family.
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It was just me.
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And I'm trying to go to college.
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I'm trying to have this relationship.
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That's like growing, like we were
talking marriage and all these
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things, and so miraculously,
everything came together, right?
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I'm going to say his
name, his name's Jake.
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He's most amazing man ever.
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He is a brother to me.
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And, he, became my dad's 24
7 caregiver in New Mexico.
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They lived together for a while until he
got another house and things like that.
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But, if it wasn't for him, I don't
know if everything would have fallen
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into place for my dad to be able to be
self-sufficient set up in New Mexico.
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But, Jumping around again.
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Here's my ADHD.
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But that summer, when he was in
the hospital is when they started
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building him a house in New Mexico
and we got things kind of put in
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place for him to relocate there.
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It's the year I got engaged.
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And so at this spinal cord injury
hospital he had to go through
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all this stuff with the bedsore.
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It was really bad.
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Like he had to be, in bed for, I think
it was like 60 days or something crazy.
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It was intense.
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And again, I'm taking care of my
grandma and it's all the things like I'm
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doing all this stuff and he recovered.
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Was in New Mexico he was
thriving, doing great.
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My grandma passed in 2010.
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Fast forward.
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It's 2017 and I'm talking
to my dad on the phone.
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We would talk every single day.
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And I noticed something that night,
like he wasn't sounding right.
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And he was by himself.
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At his home.
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Cause my, you know, my, after my
grandma died, he basically was
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at home by himself and Jake had
gotten married and had other kids.
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So he was with his family
and stuff like that.
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So my dad would be alone for periods of
time during the day, which is not unusual.
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Um, he's pretty self-sufficient he can do
most things and he would just have people
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come in at certain times of the day for
snacks and lunch and taking him to work
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and taking him home and all that stuff.
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But it was one of those transition
periods when no one was there and
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I'm talking to him on the phone
and he's not sounding right.
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Like something's off, something's wrong.
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And so I remember I had called
Jake and he wasn't available.
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He didn't answer.
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And so I called my cousin, who's
my sister, she's my sister to me.
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, we're twins.
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We actually look a lot alike.
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we are only 11 months apart.
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I'm going to talk about her in other
episodes, because that's another thing
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that's one of those like, holy shit, the
way things pan out and people's lives.
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But anyway, we'll get to that.
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Called her to go check on him
and, My dad was like blue.
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Okay.
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So she, you know, got 9 1, 1.
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I don't even remember how
it all went down, but.
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Essentially when they got to my dad,
like his oxygen level was extremely
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low, they had to , intubate him
and, airlift him to Lubbock, Texas.
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From New Mexico, because that
was the closest hospital that
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could take such a severe case.
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And so he was airlifted.
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I flew out the very first flight I
could get to meet him in Lubbock.
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I was in Lubbock with him for
six weeks away from my family.
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It was a roller coaster.
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There was so many ups and downs, you
know, he thought he was going to die.
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He told me like he, had a conversation
before he fully went unconscious,
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with me when I first arrived.
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And he expected not to make it out.
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And, Anyway, he did.
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He did.
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He made it out and I fought like hell to
get him transferred from Texas to Denver.
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So that I could still be with my family,
but still be able to check in on him
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and make sure I was his advocate inside
the hospital and things like that.
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Because let me tell you, if you
ever do have a family member that is
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hospitalized, it's so important to stay
on top of things and make sure your
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family member gets the care they need.
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Because hospitals are busy.
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Okay.
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Things get overlooked.
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The staff, like nurses
are worked to the bone.
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They don't have enough help that they need
and because of politics and stupid shit.
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They're overworked and
things can get missed.
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And so it's really important that
if you have a family member and you
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want the best care, you have got
to be that second set of eyes and
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make sure things are going well.
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Because you need to be your
family's advocate because
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things can go easily missed.
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There are so many great
nurses and doctors out there.
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So I'm not knocking that.
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It's just that a lot of them are
overworked and there's not enough
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people to come in and relieve them.
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There's, not enough
employees, it's a problem.
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So just a little side note there.
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If you do have people to make sure you,
are an advocate for somebody that may
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not be able to advocate for themselves.
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So I ended up getting it done.
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We got the transfer done.
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It took a lot of work and tears and
screaming and me being an asshole
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to a lot of people, but we got it.
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We got him to Denver and he had
to be in like the regular hospital
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for a bit, but then eventually
transferred , back to Craig hospital,
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which I had mentioned before is a
rehabilitation hospital because my dad
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had lost oxygen to the brain, like so
much had changed with that sickness.
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Like he lost his ability to speak clearly
he lost a lot of the mobility he did have,
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so he did have to re habilitate so much.
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He lost a lot of independence that
he once had after that sickness.
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And it was in this hospital stay
where there was two nurses and one
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CNA that my dad got close with,
they were just were so great.
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And we developed such
a great relationship.
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And I think we had exchanged
numbers at some point, because,
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after my dad's 60 day stay.
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He had to go back home to New Mexico,
which was also super heartbreaking
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for me, but, , I stayed in touch with
some of the nurses and, you know, I
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think it was a couple months later when
one of them called me and was like,
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yeah, I remember the school your kids
went to, will you tell me about that?
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I'm thinking about taking my kids to that
school and I was, a realtor at the time.
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I still technically am.
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I just don't do that anymore,
but at the time I was still
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active as a real estate agent.
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And so anyway , I ended up
helping her buy a house.
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And her kids went to the school my
kids went to, and then the other nurse
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also, I helped sell and buy her house.
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They all moved to the
kind of in the same area.
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And then all of our kids were
going to the same school together.
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And it was just so crazy how, my
dad getting sick and going to the
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hospital, led to me meeting these
people and led to this friendship.
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And now to this day, now we're here,
five years later and me and this girl
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are still very close and she's going
through some big transitions in her life.
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And I've been able to be a part of
it in that I'm supporting her and
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I'm so proud of her because she's
doing things in her life for the first
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time where she's making choices based
on herself, which she expressed me.
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And that's like the first time in her
life she's ever done that because a lot
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of times when we're making choices were
making them based on what our parents
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think or what other people think we should
be doing or what we think we're supposed
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to, instead of what we really want.
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And so she's just made this big
life decision based purely for
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her health, for her wellbeing.
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And it is just so empowering to see.
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And, I think the more people share those
stories, it gives other people permission
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to also do their own empowering moves
in life or they get to finally speak
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up for themselves for once or choose
themselves for once and make decisions
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based on what they need versus on
what they think they should be doing.
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What other people are expecting
them to do like this just touches on
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everything or bleeds into everything.
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And, I'm getting a little long-winded
on this thing, but I just wanted
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to take a moment to say like, just
because you're going through a hard
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time right now, or things might be,
like, " why did this happen to me?"
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Right.
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I've asked myself that question
many times throughout my life.
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Right.
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There's going to be a point when you're
going to be like, I'm so glad that did
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happen, because if that didn't happen,
then this wouldn't have happened.
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I think about if my dad wouldn't
have gotten hurt, I don't know would
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my mom and dad still be together?
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Like, I don't know what
would have happened.
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What I've grown up in his small town,
in New Mexico, would I have had a
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completely different upbringing.
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I wouldn't have been able to
meet my husband, Nick probably.
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And I so know that my relationship
with him is so meant to be because
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there's so much growth that has
happened between our relationship.
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That's another episode is relationships
and how that helps us grow.
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Every relationship, all the good, bad,
the ugly, like it's all for our growth.
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And that's why sometimes you see people
who get into a cycle of finding the same
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type of person in their relationships,
because they need to learn a lesson.
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Like they're getting shown the same
lesson over and over until they can
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finally learn the lesson and move forward
and move on, another episode for that.
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But, I'm going to jump off because
I don't like to make these too long.
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So I want them to be bite-sized
where people can stay attentive
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and really get the message, but
just really think about that.
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Really think about everything
happens for a reason.
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And see if you can think of the
things in your life, like the ripple
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effect of certain situations that you
encounter or certain people you come
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into contact with, or an experience
you may have, like every experience has
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this ripple effect of how life goes and
it's just amazingly beautiful, how it
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all works out and how so many things
become connected and how sometimes
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people come in and out of your life..
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Like, it's so strange,
but also so amazing.
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And, I just express gratitude
for my own experiences.
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Like I'm so glad for everything
happening the way it did, like
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the good, the bad, ugly, all
of it, all the pain, everything.
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Because if all those things that didn't
happen, I wouldn't be where I am today.
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And I'm so happy with where I'm at today.
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I'm happy at the growth I've done.
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I'm happy at the healing I've had to do.
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And it's getting me closer and closer
to feeling where everything's aligned.
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Like I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be.
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And that's an amazing feeling to
just feel so free and that you're
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doing what you're meant to be doing.
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Like that feeling is just.
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Wow.
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Right?
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Like it's so amazing.
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And I want everybody to feel that.
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I want everybody to get to that
place where they're proud, where
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they're excited about life.
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Where they're feeling good because
everything is just like, Your
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vibein' high like you're connected.
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And you're just feeling like you're on
that right path, that trajectory, and
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you're like are walking with your faith,
like knowing that you're in the right
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direction, like you're manifesting you're
co-creating like, I want people to get
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there because it is so awesome, when
you find your power, that's what it is.
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I want you to find the power.
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That's why I am being the light,
because I want to light others
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up because when others are lit
up, it helps others light up.
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It's a ripple effect where the
light just it's like the candle.
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Like you take one candle, which
lights, the other candle, which lights
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that candle, like it just spreads.
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And you think about it, like on a
worldwide level, on that collective level?
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Like what I touched on before, if more
people are up, and shining their light.
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That's what bleeds out darkness.
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Remember Martin Luther king Jr.
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Was saying.
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Darkness cannot eradicate darkness.
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Only light can do that.
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The same thing hate.
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You can't kill hate with more
hate, only love can do that.
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And that's what life's about is about
finding that light, finding the love.
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And if we can all get to that place, like
as a collective, like if enough of us can
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do that, then we can smother the darkness
with light and bring love to hate.
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I know that sounds woo woo or Like
my head in the clouds type of
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thing, but, I don't know, man.
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Like I believe it, I believe it.
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And it's on every individual to what
they believe, but I believe it.
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I'm going to wrap it up with that.
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So, be the light.
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Know, that everything
happens for a reason.
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If you have any feedback, have
anything you want to let me know,
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hit me in the DM's on Instagram or
Facebook @chelsea.vanbuskirk you
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can find me at chelseavanbuskirk.com
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I've got a link there for you guys
to download my high vibe playlist.
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I highly recommend it help you boost those
vibes up and I'll see you guys next week.
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Okay, Peace!