11. 100% Genuine- How we experience incensarities in our life and also participate in them too.

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Hey everyone, what's up!

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It's Chelsea VanBuskirk
with the Heart AF podcast.

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Hope everyone is doing well.

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if you're catching me on video, you
might notice, it looks like I have

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some eye makeup on one eye and not the
other, but you would be wrong because

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this is the beginnings of a black I
got from my three-year-old son, who I

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was playing with out in the backyard.

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And.

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I was trying to teach him hopscotch.

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Cause I was like, oh, this
is actually kind of fun.

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Keeping him entertained
until I was bent over.

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And he jumped up and his hard
ass head hit me or right there

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in that like eye socket area.

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And yeah, it really hurt.

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And now I've got the beginnings
of a nice little black eye here

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got that going on for myself.

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So that's fun.

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anyway, One of my previous episodes, we
were talking about being fake, right?

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Like how some people like
to just be fake as fuck.

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Yeah.

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And I was walking with one of my very good
friends who we try to meet at least once

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a week, if not multiple times a week to
do, I heard them called sanity strolls,

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which I love that word because me and my
friend, we like to walk and talk together.

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And it's one of the highlights
of my week when we get a chance

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to make that work with our
schedules, because she's my person.

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And this actually goes hand in
hand because this story is going to

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integrate a conversation I had with her.

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But, we were also talking about
the energy we bring to each other.

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Like she is definitely the friend that I
can come to when I'm at my low points in

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life, but also the one that's going to
like help pump me up and, support me.

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She's not fake with me.

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Right.

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Like she calls me out when I need
to be called out, which I love.

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We both are high energy individuals.

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We both are also sensitive, like
highly sensitive individuals that

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pick up other people's energy.

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So when you bring two people
that have that higher energy

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together, it's awesome because our
energy just feeds off each other.

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So.

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We have that connection where
we can help pump each other up.

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So if one of us is feeling more down
just being together and we can help

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pump each other up and it's awesome.

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It's also just nice to have that support
when you are having those really low

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energy and low vibe times in your life.

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Because we all have hard moments.

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What's interesting is me and her
also had this conversation about how

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we can go through multiple levels
throughout one single day, right?

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Like we can be really high energy feeling
good and something happens and our mood

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can shift or we're around certain people
that just drains our energy or makes

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us shut down because we're so sensitive.

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That our moods and our energy can
fluctuate by who we're around.

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What's around in our environment.

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Like, right now in my
house, it's very disarrayed.

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Like it's very unorganized and
I'm getting help with that.

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My friend is actually helping
me redecorate my office.

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So I'm really excited to give
you guys the new background

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once this office is done, but.

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Things are , moving around and it's, kind
of this unsettling feeling and just the

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energy of space actually can affect me.

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Right?

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Like the way.

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If there's too much clutter,
like that makes me anxious.

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And I don't like that.

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Like I like things to be put away.

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And that's hard when you have kids.

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because they take their shit
out and they don't really care.

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I mean, there might be some
kids that do care mine don't.

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so their rooms are a mess and it is
so hard for me to see that, like,

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I really have to just block it out.

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Because I also believe
that it is their space.

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It is their room, so they can make
it how they want and how they see fit.

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But at the same time, there's gotta be
some kind of order in the chaos, but.

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we're in the middle of trying
to help them organize as well.

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We'll see what happens.

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Okay.

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Because they are still
individuals, there are themselves.

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I want to give them a better
structure so that maybe they

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can be a little bit more neat.

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But within their own individual limits,
that kind of thing, but at least I

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can give them some kind of help, to
get it a little bit more organized.

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Yeah, I'm jumping around because
you know, like I divulged in the

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last episode I have ADHD, so my
mind goes a million miles a minute.

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It's probably why I also
talk very fast, but.

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I feel like there's a lot of
people that can relate to that.

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There's a lot of people that also are high
energy and have their minds bounce around.

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So those people tend to follow me so
kudos to you, if you can follow me

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and my bouncing around sometimes and
my, fast talking, you are my people.

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So back to what I want to talk
about, this energy thing.

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And also just having sincere
interactions because we were

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talking about how like people try
to sell you all the time, right?

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Like we're sold to constantly, we're
sold to, with our social media feeds were

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sold to through, you know, billboards
when we're driving advertisements on

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the radio, or advertise to on your music
streaming services, even on podcasts.

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Now there's a lot of advertisements
going on, and I mean, it's just

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the world we live in, right?

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Like we're always getting sold to we're
in a, we're a consumer based, society.

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Right.

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So we're always being sold to,
but the problem is that sometimes.

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People will approach you and they
start conversations with you.

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And it seems genuine.

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You're like, oh wow.

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This person really cares.

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Like they're responding to something
I was vulnerable with and shared.

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And then they slap on the back end
and it's a sale like the whole time.

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It was a sales pitch and that's
like the worst feeling ever.

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And if you do have a social
media presence, I know you've

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probably experienced this.

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I really don't want to knock certain
people who have side hustles and

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businesses, because I'm all about
empowerment and people finding

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ways to make money for themselves.

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I think that's so great, but I
think there's ways to be more

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tactful about it than others.

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And I know one of the ways that a
lot of network marketing people

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who work in that industry.

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They tend to sometimes come off slimy
and I know that's not their intention.

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Right.

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Deep down.

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I know that's not their intention.

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I was a network marketer
for many years too.

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So I get it.

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I know that you're just trying
to make a business for yourself.

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I know that you're trying to
get sales and, you know, hustle

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and make money for yourself.

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And that is so great.

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But at the same time, there are
certain situations you put yourself in.

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And I knew when I did it, like, I didn't
feel great when I would do these messages,

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but you kind of feel this push from your
upline and you feel that pressure right.

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To like produce and.

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Sometimes you might have a nice flow
production for a while, but then

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there comes these moments where you
start to get that kind of desperation.

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Like you have goals to meet, Or you're
trying to win something in your industry.

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And so there's this external
pressure that you really

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feel like you have to meet.

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And I feel like that's where
the skeezy-ness comes off.

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And it's not that again, it's not
that you're meaning to be right.

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Like, I think that these people are
really genuine and they're really

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just trying to build a business.

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Right.

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But it's how you feel as the
consumer, the one that's getting

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approached, that's being sold, right?

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Like it does not feel good when you
think you're having a really awesome

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conversation with somebody and you
feel like you've connected with

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somebody you've made a connection.

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You feel like it's genuine.

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You feel like they're caring about
what's going on in your life and

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then slides in that sales pitch.

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Right?

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Like it always ends with that sales
pitch and it leaves you feeling shitty.

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Like you're like, wow, I
really feel like this big.

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And you can't see me if you're listening,
audibly, but my fingers are showing a

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really small gap in them, because you
feel small, you feel shitty, you feel

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insignificant, you feel like you're
just another number to this person when.

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A few minutes ago, you felt like you
actually had a genuine connection with

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somebody that actually cared about you.

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And that sucks.

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And, then it really takes away that
friendship or the bond that you may

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or may not have been able to genuinely
have, when that, sales pitch comes in.

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Right.

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So I was talking about this with my
friend, because I had poured my heart

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out , about my struggles with binge
eating and how I was embarking on this

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new journey of, you know, throwing out
the scale, deleting the tracking apps

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on my phone, like really turning a
blind eye to diet, culture, and fitness.

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And diet, personalities and
influencers, because I really need

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to focus on my, body's internal cues.

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Like I need to really learn
how to be present with food.

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I need to not be in the mindset
of can I, or can I eat this?

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And how many calories is this?

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Is this the best thing?

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You know, I can't be focused
on my body change right now.

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Like right now I have to
work through my mindset.

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I have to work on these internal
wounds that I need to heal

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around food and my body image.

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That's my goal right now is to work
through these issues that I have.

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And then also to build a positive
relationship with food and a

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positive relationship with my body.

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And to learn how to listen to my
body and eat like a normal person.

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Learn my hunger cues learn to
eat when I'm hungry, learned

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to stop eating when I'm full.

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Be done and rid of the binge restrict
cycle where, I get hopped up on the next

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new diet or, want to lose weight, right?

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Like it's all about manipulation and
wanting to control my body shape.

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And I'm doing that by food and exercise.

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I have to break away from that
for now because I'm healing

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things that need to be healed.

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And I need to focus on that healing.

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And I need to step away
from that diet culture.

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So I made this post, I made a post and
poured my heart out about all these

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struggles I'm having, how I've been
struggling with binge eating disorder

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for, I don't even know how many years now.

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It's been a very long time that I've
had severe body image issues ever

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since I was 17 and gained weight
in my senior year of high school.

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It's always been a constant struggle
where I feel like my worth is

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based on my body shape and size
and aesthetic and going through my

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own self-love and healing journey.

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I know that my body does
not define my worth.

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I know that.

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Right.

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I know that, but do I genuinely believe
that a hundred percent of the time?

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And do I genuinely feel that
a hundred percent of the time?

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No.

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I'm still in a place where I judge my
body and think it needs to be better.

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And I'm self-conscious.

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And when you're self-conscious and not
feeling great about your body, like that

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bleeds into a lot of other areas in your
life, it bleeds into your relationships

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and your intimacy with your partner

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I'm just working on myself and my healing.

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I've expressed it before, but I like to
be transparent with whatever I'm dealing

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with in life, because I want to be.

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Real and genuine and build relationships
with people so that I can connect with

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them if they might be struggling with some
of the same things that I struggle with.

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And I just think that's a great way
to not only embark on hard things in

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life is by knowing you're not doing
it alone or being able to connect with

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somebody who's doing something that
you're working through as well, helps

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provide you that extra support and
motivation that if someone else

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can do it, you can do it as well.

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So that's why I like to
share and be transparent.

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So.

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. After I shared this post, I had a lot
of great, comments and engagement,

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like support, and it felt really
good to just let all that stuff out.

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Like let people know, like, Hey,
I've been struggling with this

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For, quite a while.

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And now I'm trying to make amends
and heal myself and go on this new

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journey of making it right and learning
to love my body and learning to be

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present with my body and learning to
have a positive relationship with food.

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And.

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I started to get a few private messages.

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And I know most of these women that were
private messaging me had good intentions.

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They were trying to relate to me.

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They knew, I just confessed I had a
struggle with food and body image.

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But after they're sincere
messages and trying to relate

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to me in came their sales pitch.

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And it was really super frustrating.

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I was really lit up.

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I was really pissed off is
what I was, I was pissed off.

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'cause.

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I was like, what the fuck?

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I just poured my heart
out and was vulnerable.

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And then you guys had to come back with a
sales, like you're trying to sell me when

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I literally am expressing the fact, I need
to shut myself off from this diet culture

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and the health and fitness culture.

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I don't need another food plan.

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I don't need more supplements right now.

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Right now, I just need to tune myself
out of the ever-present diet culture.

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That's already in my face, no
matter where I look, but to really

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be able to focus on myself and my
healing and not be bombarded with.

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Sales a new diet plans
and workouts and stuff.

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So.

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Anyway.

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Talking to my friend,
venting to her as we do.

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We like to vent our shit to each
other, which is really healthy.

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Honestly, find yourself a good person,
that you can relate to, that you can

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freely vent to and know that you will
not be judged and that you have that

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support where you can just let yourself
go and then maybe get some encouragement.

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And anyway, She has some great
insight from her grandparents.

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Like I wish I could have met
her grandparents because they

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sound so fucking amazing.

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Like she had a great relationship
with her grandparents.

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She was so fortunate to have.

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Such an amazing bond with her
grandparents, but anyway, she

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was just, she's making me laugh.

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She's so funny.

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My friend.

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So we're talking about this as
being fake and being insincere.

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And her grandmother was like,
there is something about integrity.

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Like she's a woman of her word.

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Like she believes in handshake deals.

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Like she is very old school and she
like was very strong in her beliefs and

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she made her beliefs known about that
characteristics she had of herself.

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So, my friend was giving me this example
of when her grandparents would be like,

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you know, at church or some kind of
get together and, the grandpa would

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be like, okay, well we'll make plans
to see us sometime, you know, and that

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her grandma would be like, no, don't
say that we're not going to make plans.

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Like don't, don't say that.

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Don't tell them something
we're not actually going to do.

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Like, no, no, we're not going to see you.

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We're not going to call you next week.

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Like we're not.

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You know, and I'm just giggling, as
she's telling me this story, because

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damn, that is some great advice, right?

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Like that's something that as I've tried
to overcome my people pleasing tendencies.

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Like that's something I do all
the time, where I'm like, yeah.

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Okay.

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We'll make plans.

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Yeah.

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And then guess what plans ever get made?

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And it was so funny cause I'm like, oh my
gosh, I need my friend's grandma in my ear

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to let me know, like, no, don't say that.

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Don't say what you don't mean.

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Right?

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Don't make fake promises, like
have some integrity, it's time

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to start a new revolution where
we're actually more genuine and

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sincere and be keepers of our word.

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Because that's important and that's
a significant characteristic that if,

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you can do that, like that is so big
to be a genuine person to really have

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that much awareness to not just say.

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Things to be nice, but to say things that
are you're actually going to hold true.

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Right.

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So when you invite somebody like,
yeah, we should catch up and have

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lunch, Only say that if you mean it.

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You know, like let's go back there.

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So now I'm re-thinking of all the times.

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I've done that where
I've made fake promises.

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It's like, no, you need
to shut the fuck up.

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And like only make.

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Invites and only say yes to invites.

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If you genuinely are going
to follow it through, right.

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Like, and I know it's hard because I
know a lot of us have good intentions

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and there are times where, you know,
you intentionally do want to make plans

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with somebody and things just don't
work out because I know life is busy.

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And especially as a mom, like
stuff comes up all the time,

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especially if your schedules are
inconsistent, like I get that.

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So this is not.

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a knock on that.

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This is just a knock on If you really
have intentions of making plans with

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somebody, or you tell somebody something
like, make sure that you have that

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intention, like, don't say something
just to be nice or for a pleasantry.

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Like let's get over, like
being fake like that.

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Like, we don't need to do that anymore.

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There's a way to still be polite and
kind without making false promises.

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So that's the root of what I
wanted to get to with that.

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And I just thought that was pretty
fucking cool, honestly, because

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no one wants to feel like just a
number or being sold to., right.

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I was venting about another thing, like,
we have people that we go to for services.

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Right.

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And sometimes salesmen usually or
people that sometimes they're fake

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with you and I just can't stand it.

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When they're like, oh, how are you?

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But it's just not, and that was another
story my friend was telling me, and

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I think this one might've been her
grandpa who was like, never ask anybody

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how they are, because no, one's
going to tell you how it really is.

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So don't ask that because you're not
going to get a real answer back and you

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honestly, probably don't really care.

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So I was like, oh, I
gotta rethink that too.

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If I'm asking somebody how
they are, like, it really needs

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to be like, no , how are you?

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I want you to answer me, honestly.

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I don't want just yeah, I'm good.

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Thanks.

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Cause that's a fucking lie.

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You know, like, unless everything
was really, really great.

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A 'how are you' question is something
that you probably are asking somebody

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that you have a genuine care for and have
the time and space to ask that question,

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but so many of us just get into that
habit of just like, oh, how are you?

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And it's like, no, that's not a
real genuine question right now.

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So maybe we shouldn't be
asking that all the time.

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I feel like it's on the same lines of
when you say 'I love you' too much I

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don't think that you can ever express
how much you care for somebody too much.

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But I'm just saying there's times where
if you just are saying, I love you.

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To the extent where it's not keeping
the weight of the meaning of that,

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you know, Love's a big word and
you should mean it when you say it.

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So I really just think this is like
a, check-in moment with ourselves.

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Including me, I'm like the worst at this.

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I'm still in my journey of
overcoming, like this feeling like

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I have to be pleasing everybody.

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Right?

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Like the people pleaser
mindset, I'm still in that.

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I'm slowly coming out of it.

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And I think the problem sometimes with
finding our ways out of people, pleasing

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habits is we still want to be kind to
people like we genuinely have big hearts

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and we want to be kind and show kindness.

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And I think it's hard for us
to still be kind and polite

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without being fake and ingenuine.

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And so that's kind of the puzzle
here is figuring out how to

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still be kind and pleasant.

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But being honest and not just
saying what we think people want

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to hear, or just being fake.

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Right.

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I just think that human
connection is so important.

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I'm going to wrap up with this
because I'm really excited.

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I've been wanting to create a
community for women for months.

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And I'm finally getting
the ball rolling on that.

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So if you are on Facebook, I am
creating a private community for women.

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And I'm just really excited because
it's really going to be what I've

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always envisioned this safe space
that's full of support and guidance.

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I'm going to do some live meditations
and healings in this group, and

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it's just going to be so amazing and
empowering and just full of that support

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guidance and motivation that you need
to create positive change in your life.

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Like it'll be a safe space where you
can vent and share your struggles

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and know that you're held, right?

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Know that you have a safe space.

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That's just for you where you
can vent about your family.

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You can vent about your kids with no
judgment and just figure out ways to take

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care of yourself and find that support
when you make hard changes, you know?

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That's what it's going to be there for.

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And I'm so excited.

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So be on the lookout for that.

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If you are on my social
media, if you're not yet.

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Friend request me, DM me.

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I'm on Instagram and Facebook
@chelsea.vanbuskirk or you can find me

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on my website at chelseavanbuskirk.com

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I also wanted to mention that I have
created a playlist and I'm so excited

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about this because I've talked,
I talked about it last episode.

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But the importance of music to me and
my life, and also how music can be used

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as something that's transcendental for
you to boost your mood, to raise your

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energy, like music is so powerful.

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And I've created this playlist that
if you are my person, if you are part

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of my tribe, It'll be music for you.

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It's going to be music that's
going to raise your vibe, boost

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your energy, make you feel good.

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Like this is the playlist you're
going to put on to pump yourself up.

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This is the music you put on.

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When you're by yourself, you're in the
car or you got your headphones on and

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you're by yourself and need to just
dance it out , if you want to scream

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and sing at the top of your lungs, or
if you just want to move like dance.

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It doesn't matter how bad you dance.

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Like you can just be by yourself
and just dance and it's so awesome.

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It's a great way to move stagnant
energy and like move your body and just

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really , get into the flow, get into
the zone, get into the beat, right?

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Like you feel the beat.

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You listen to the lyrics that feels
empowering and it pumps you up.

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Like it's so awesome.

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Music's amazing music is life for
sure in my world, music is life.

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So going to have this playlist
is specifically for my people and

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there'll be a place on my website
where you can get this playlist.

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So you'll go to ChelseaVanbuskirk.com
it should pop right up.

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A little opt-in for you
to grab this playlist.

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I'm going to have it available
on apple music and Spotify.

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So, you know, either one of those
that you use, you'll be able to

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scoop up that playlist, put it on
your phone and fucking jam out.

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So yes, I say jam
because that's my level.

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But anyway, it's a playlist that's
going to pump you up, is going to raise

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your vibe and I'm excited to share it
because I know I love playlist's I like

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looking through stuff, so it's nice to
have one already just pre-made for you.

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And I got you.

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This playlist made it specifically
for you guys out there.

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I'll keep you updated on that group
and show you how you can join if you'd

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like to and I'm sorry if you don't have
Facebook, then you're kind of Sol because

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that's where my community is going to be.

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So maybe you can create a
Facebook that's private.

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That's just for the Facebook community.

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I mean, you decide.

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You know where to find me.

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hope you guys have a wonderful
week and I'll catch you next time.

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Peace.